Living Life, Laughing the Whole Time.

"Are We Getting Closer or Are We Just Getting More Lost?"

2012-02-03T00:43:00.004-05:00

[Song.Swing Life Away.Rise Against]

This is a song that hasn't been played in my iTunes since July 12th of 2009.

I love it, but it's just one of those songs. One of those songs, by one of those bands, and I just couldn't do it.

I realize that a blog post is not the best possible platform for this, but I have to get this all out and this is the only way I can do it.

Here's hoping that someone makes you read this.

You were my best friend. The best friend I could have ever had. And then you were more than that. Then I fell for you. I fell hard. And then it was good. It was great. Until it wasn't anymore. And at that point, we were this awkward thing. I don't know what it was, but I hated it. I hated the limbo. I hated not knowing what to do or how to act around you. I hated not knowing what to say to you. Talking to you used to be like breathing. It was so easy. But there came a time when I had to carefully plan every word that I said. And then feelings got in the way. I started to crumble. I did the only thing I thought I could do. I disappeared. I thought it made everything easier. But the truth? I acted like it didn't matter. I acted like I didn't care. I cared. It mattered.

I don't know what changed. I have no idea what caused it, but something changed. Now I want nothing more than to be able to say hi to you. I don't want anything more from you. I know you're probably happy now, and I love that. It's not like that at all. I just want to have my friend back. I know Its not something that I can expect from you, but I would give anything to be able to say hi to you again. I don't know how you feel. I do know that you asked me not to disappear, and that was a week ago. I'm trying. I don't know what else to do to make you see that I would love to talk to you again.

This is my last attempt, though. If you don't respond to this, I'll leave you alone and go on. I just want you to know that I miss talking to you. I miss hanging out. If you read this, you know my number. You know my email. You know where to find me. I'll be waiting to hear from you.

If not, I sincerely hope you know that I wish you nothing but the best. I will always wish you the best. I hope you have a great life and I hope you know that I'll always be around. :)

Okay, I'm done now. Sorry to anyone who didn't really want to read this. I needed to say it, though.

In a Little While--Uncle Kracker

2011-12-15T11:45:00.003-05:00

Here's to the good life or so they say

All those parties and games that all those people play

They tell me this is the place to be

All these beautiful people and nothin' to see

Sometimes I feel like something is gone here

Something is wrong here, I don't belong here

Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town

And I've lost what I found, it'll all turn around

[CHORUS]

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you

In a little while I'll still be here without you

You never gave me a reason to doubt you

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby

On the other side of a coin

There's a face there's a memory somewhere that I can't erase

And there's a place that I find someday

But sometimes I feel like it's slippin' away

Sometimes I feel like something is gone here

Something is wrong here, I don't belong here

Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town

And I've lost what I found, it'll all turn around

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you

In a little while I'll still be here without you

You never gave me a reason to doubt you

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby

Some things are lost some left behind

Some things are better left for someone else to find

Maybe in time I can finally see

I just wonder, wonder if you think about me

Sometimes I feel like something is gone here

Something is wrong here, I don't belong here

Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town

And I've lost what I found, it'll all turn around

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you

In a little while I'll still be here without you

You never gave me a reason to doubt you

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you

In a little while I'll still be here without you

You never gave me a reason to doubt you

In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby

I Need a Capri Sun

2011-12-11T22:35:00.001-05:00

It's days like today that make me realize that even though it's weird, I'm really glad we're friends. Talking to you always puts a smile on my face. :) Just thought you needed to know. :D

xoxo

Best Friend :)

December 9th, 2009

2011-12-10T01:42:00.001-05:00

It's been two years, and it still makes me cry when I think about it. Sadness just hit me like a brick.

He was one of my heroes, and he will always be someone I will live to impress.

Jack Clarke, Grandpa, I miss you today. I miss you everyday. <3

Love,

Dani

It's Been an Interesting Couple of Days

2011-12-08T01:24:00.001-05:00

Have you ever had something happen that conflicts with damn near everything you grew to know and understand, but you don't really care even though you know you should? Well, I have, and this is really starting to make my heart hurt a little. :/ Blah.

See You Soon--Jason Aldean

2011-11-14T19:28:00.001-05:00

Lets don't say goodbye
I hate the way it sounds
So if you don't mind
Lets just say for now...

See you when I see you
Another place another time
If I ever get down your way
Or your ever up around mine
We'll laugh about the old days
And catch up on the new
Yeah see you when I see you
And I hope it's some day soon

God made this old world round
And maybe it's that way
So the paths we go down
Yeah I will cross again some day
And someday I'll...

See you when I see you
Another place another time
If I ever get down your way
Or you ever up around mine
We'll laugh about the old days
And catch up on the new
Yeah see you when I see you
And I hope it's some day real soon
I hope it's some day soon

See you when I see you
Another place another time
If I ever get down your way
Or you ever up around mine just stop by
We'll laugh about the old days
And catch up the new
Yeah see you when I see you till then my prayers are with you
And I hope it's some day soon

I'll see you when I see you

Stay tuned for a real post

2011-10-25T11:25:00.002-04:00

I'm working on a pretty awesome post about the last 4 years of my life. Stay tuned. It's going to be great. :)

In the meantime...

This is the song I'm currently listening to on repeat

Jake Owen--Barefoot Blue Jean Night

Listen. :)

It's October!

2011-10-04T10:12:00.002-04:00

Well, it's October again, and do you know what that reminds me of? I'll tell you. Photo post time!! :D

The first thing I think of actually comes as a set.

Cider and Donuts!

The essential "Fall" food items. I mean look at them, don't they look awesome? :)

HOMECOMING! There are so many fun memories attached to last years homecoming. :) I will never look at pinot grigio and oreos the same way ever again. This was a really fun day for all of us, I think. I know we're really pumped to do it again this year. :D

Caving. My roommate, she's cute sometimes. Back when my life was nothing but chaotic idiocy, she told me that I was skipping classes one day and we were going on a surprise road trip. That surprise? Caving! We drove to southern Indiana to this cave place (the name of which I cannot remember at the moment) and we spent our afternoon spelunking! We both want to go back sometime soon. It was a lot of fun, and it totally made my life a lot better at the time.

**Side note** Chelsea, you sort of rock. :) Haha. Rock. Caving. Get it? I'm hilarious. :D

Anyway, this was one of the more fun times I've had. I'm ready to do it again. Lets go, Chels. :D

Had a good weekend, but..

2011-10-02T18:10:00.002-04:00

Today is one of those "I'm just in a bad mood" kind of days. :/

"Come on, Come on, Come on and Dance With Me."

2011-09-25T23:03:00.000-04:00

[Come Dance With Me. Frank Sinatra]

Thunder, rain, homework, and Frank. There have been worse nights. :)

My Dad Would Do This, Too...

2011-09-22T14:35:00.003-04:00

"Because being a dad is my number one job, as much as I love you all, if she calls, I'm going to talk to her." --Probably the greatest Professor I've had

Awww.

Dear Sorostitute at Starbucks, Please Read This Carefully:

2011-09-22T11:44:00.000-04:00

There are some people that I encounter in my life and I just can't help but wonder "What the hell is wrong with you?" I just encountered one of these people.

I was getting coffee here at the Starbucks in the union and while I was walking back to my table this girl gives me the most obvious stare as I walked by her. Normally I don't notice [nor do I normally give a damn] these stares I get from people, but this girl was SHAMELESS. I'm talkin' head turned as I passed, watched me walk all the way back to the table from the counter. I looked up and met her eyes as she stared at me just after she let out a giggle. Now, I can only assume that I gave her a look that could kill, because she immediately got this sad look on her face, apologized, and walked away awfully quickly.

I get it. I walk funny. Congratulations, girl in Starbucks, you now know what I've known my whole life. Next time? Just ask me what's wrong with me. Making up a story is so much more fun that having the overwhelming urge to slap the stupid off your face.

That being said, let me just vent a smidge about this.

Yes, I am a 'twee bit crippled' [Thanks, Chels, for reminding me of that the other day. You're hilarious. :p] For those of you who don't really know what's wrong, I'll take the time to tell you. I was born 2 months premature, and as a result of that, I have what they call Cerebral Palsy. It affected the Achilles tendon in my heels. I used to walk A LOT worse than I do now, but that's mostly because I've had three surgeries to attempt to correct the issue. The second one fixed my left leg, but it apparently didn't stick with the right one. So, when I was 14 we gave it another shot. That one worked in the sense that I can now put my right heel to the ground. Other than that, though, I would consider the last surgery I had to be ineffective. I was upset about this once upon a time, but now not so much.

That's just me, and I'm okay with that. But it's times like today where I'm just dumbfounded by people. Staring? Okay, I get that. It's different. You can't help it. Whatever. But laughing? Come on, you're in college now. Grow up a little. When you giggle, you don't make me depressed or sad. You piss me off. You must be one ignorant person to find that funny, and you must lack brain cells all together to think that I don't know that you're doing it. Next time remember this:

I'm much more than just a girl who walks funny. I'm one of the nicest people you'd ever meet. I can be the best friend you'd ever have. I think I'm kinda funny. I'm pretty smart when I try hard enough. I have the ability to laugh at myself, and I'm completely okay with who I am. Can you say the same? No, probably not. You're probably the kind of person who thrives on the acceptance of others, and you crumble without it. Me? Nah. You don't like me? Fine. I don't really need you to like me. I've got the best friends that I could ask for. So, girl in Starbucks, think before you stare at someone who doesn't prance around in leggings and sperrys just like you. Think next time.

Okay. I'm done ranting now. Have a lovely day everyone. :)

You know you're in a bad mood when...

2011-09-15T22:57:00.003-04:00

Talking to that person who somehow always makes you feel even the tiniest bit better does absolutely nothing, and looking at pictures of things that make you smile somehow don't do the trick either. I'm going to bed.

Wasting time in class. Day 3--Pictures of Your Friends!!

2011-09-15T10:22:00.003-04:00

Kayla :)

Angela.

Jen and Kayla. I love these two a whole bunch.

Allie!

Chelsea. :D

These are my girls. I love them all quite a lot. We always have the best times together. Thanks for being so great!

"Call Me Irresponsible, Call Me Unreliable..."

2011-09-15T09:47:00.000-04:00

[Call Me Irresponsible--Frank Sinatra]

I've created a Frank Sinatra station on Pandora. I love it. I wish they still made music like this. Funny, huh? When I was little I would always whine when my grandpa played music like that, and now I listen to it all the time. He'd be proud, that's for sure. :)

Anyway, on with this 30 days of blogging stuff. I'm not following the same list anymore, so it's a little different. Today's post? A picture of yourself from a year ago followed by one from now. Accompanied by a description of how I feel I've changed. This'll be fun.

How am I different? Hmm. I feel like I'm a lot happier now, for a variety of reasons. If I've learned anything from the last year it's to not let things get to me. That was one of the harder lessons to learn in life, but I did it, and it definitely helps. I have a life that I'm happy with, friends that I would die without, and a family who I miss somethin' awful. [Hey guys, I know you read this. COME SEE ME.]

I think I finally figured out what I want to do with my life, and that's great. I guess I'm just generally a happier and better person now than I was a year ago. :)

How Insightful.

2011-09-13T14:34:00.002-04:00

"You think you won't change, but everybody changes. No exceptions."

Well, This Happened Sooner Than I thought...

2011-09-13T13:52:00.002-04:00

Today marks the start of my third week of classes. I skipped a class this afternoon. I had lunch with Kayla. Met people. All in all, it was a lovely way to spend 45 minutes. I think I missed a movie, so I'm not heartbroken. Here's to a great semester, kids!

Tuesdays are the Worst Days

2011-09-13T11:58:00.002-04:00

Because I failed at this the first time I attempted it, and because my darling roommate is harassing me about not posting on this enough, I'm starting that 30 day challenge thing over again. It's the only way I can force myself to actually write in this thing at the moment. However, it's getting rather difficult for me to give you 15 NEW interesting facts. [I'm apparently not that interesting. hmm.] So if the list doesn't quite get to 15, my bad. Anyway.


Day One-- A Picture of You and 15 'Interesting' Facts About You

1. I could claim residence in the IMU. Not kidding. I spend way too much time here.

2. I will rinse a cup out three times before I use it, even if I know it's clean.

3. I could wear jeans and hoodies year round. I've done it. See this picture? I just took it. It's 80 degrees outside right now. [But I swear to you, its -30 in Starbucks. Jesus.]

4. College has taught me a lot of things, but the most important thing I've learned is that it's not really the classes you take or the degree you get, but the life you live while you're here that matters most.

5. I forgive entirely too easily.

6. I am perfectly content listening to music instead of watching TV. I can get more out of music sometimes.

7. If you walked into my apartment you'd think my roommate and I were the most self-absorbed people in the world. But really, we just have lots of friends who like taking pictures with us. :)

8. I can't cook nearly as well as I feel I should be able to. My mother would be disappointed.

10. I hate sleeping past noon, but not sleeping til at least ten really bothers me.

11. I have mini panic attacks every time I find myself standing at the top of a flight of stairs. Not kidding. It always takes me a second or two before I start walking down them.

12. I always start walking with my right foot forward, and I count steps as I walk up them. Always.

13. I have an extreme fear of getting stuck in an elevator. I try and avoid them, even if that means walking up a ton of stairs.

14. I own a mac now, and I love it. But when it comes time to buy a new computer, I don't know that I'll buy another one.

15. There are only a handful of people I go to when I'm upset, and there's an even smaller group of people I would trust to not laugh at me for the stupid things I'm upset over sometimes.

Aww. Too Cute!

2011-08-14T00:49:00.001-04:00

"Hey silly girl. I love you, you know that right?" --Morgan

This show can be cute sometimes. :D

My Blog has Become a "Let's Quote Criminal Minds" Adventure

2011-08-11T22:18:00.002-04:00

"You are a statuesque god of sculpted chocolate thunder." --Garcia

"Why don't you tell me something I don't already know." --Morgan

"I have a sweet tooth?" --Garcia

You're having creepy fun. I wish I was there. --Garcia

2011-08-07T11:48:00.001-04:00

"You really are afraid of the dark."--Morgan

"I'm workin' on it."--Reid

"You should work a little harder."--Morgan

For some reason this conversation made me laugh.

Huh. This Feels Strange.

2011-07-30T20:00:00.005-04:00

"You take the breath right out of me, left a hole where my heart should be. You gotta fight just to make it through, because I will be the death of you." --Breath, Breaking Benjamin

I don't know that you still read this, but I had a dream the other night that something bad happened to you, and I hope you're doing okay. I know that should you read this, you'll probably be upset in some way. Please don't be. Itunes just played this song and it kind of hit me like a brick. I hope you're doing well and that you're happy. :)

Season One, Episode Six

2011-07-30T19:26:00.002-04:00

"Not knowing how to feel is not the same as not feeling anything." --Mandy Patinkin [As Jason Gideon, Criminal Minds]

This show always has such great quotes. :)

Day 11--Another Picture of You and Your Friends

2011-07-17T13:30:00.006-04:00

Okay, so I'm cheating on this one. But I had to include two pictures. :) This first one is of Allie and I at her IU orientation on Friday. We skipped out on the 'financing college' and 'the dorm experience' parts of it to play in the fountain. We had a blast. :) I'm happy this girl is around. We always have fun together. :D

This was taken the same day as the last one, only about 5 hours later. Chelsea and I wanted to go be freshman for the day, so we took pictures by the fountain. We're adorable, I know. :)

Day 10--Songs you Listen to When...

2011-07-16T14:01:00.003-04:00

You're happy: The go to song when I'm happy at the moment is "Give a Little"--Hanson. This song is one of those songs that just makes me want to dance. I love listening to it when I'm in a good mood. :)

You're sad: "Dreamed I Could Fly (Dreamin' About You)"--Gary Joe Foster w/ 2XL. For those of you who don't know, that would be my father. If I'm ever sad or unhappy about anything, chances are you will hear this song blaring from my computer or my earbuds. It just makes me feel better to hear a song I love. My dad wrote it when I was little. There's debate as to what the meaning behind it is, but I have a general idea. It's a sweet song, and it just makes me happier.

You're bored: Does putting my itunes on shuffle count? If I'm bored, that's what I do. The song it just started playing was "Who I Am"--Jessica Andrews. Because this was probably cheating, I'll give you a great story attached to this song. When I was little, my two best friends and I would play this song as loud as our parents would let us and sing to it. Sometimes for hours. To Samantha and Jessie, I miss you both. :)

You're mad: This is one of my new favorite songs, "Revolution"--Flogging Molly. It's a song about Detroit and its current economic situation. [It's awful, by the way. In case you hadn't noticed] The band actually named themselves a "Detroit" band after Dave King and his wife Bridget Regan [both members of the band] moved to Detroit, Bridget's hometown. Their newest album [Speed of Darkness, highly recommended.] has a lot of songs about the turmoil that Detroit is facing. This song in particular talks about how the city is losing jobs, and members of the community as a consequence. The song talks about the struggle that the working class of Detroit is currently dealing with. The song is the anthem of the city, in my opinion. I love it.

You're hyped: This one is really hard. If I chose based on my play count in itunes though, it'd be "Tonight, Tonight"--Hot Chelle Rae. This is another one of those songs that I turn up and dance around to, usually when I'm getting ready for the day. It's a great song.

Season Five, Episode Three

2011-07-16T10:56:00.003-04:00

"You told me you were cleared to fly. You lied."--Hotch

"No, I'm a doctor, so technically it's not a lie."--Reid

"So what was it then?"--Garcia

"A second opinion..."--Reid

"You're my bitch now."--Garcia

I love this show. :D

Day 9--Something I'm Proud of in the Past Few Days

2011-07-15T09:19:00.002-04:00

Uh. I woke up at 6:30 on my day off to go to Allie's orientation with her?

I doubt that counts. Let's think.

I've been responsible about spending money. I've managed to save enough to both pay my bills and have a good time next weekend. I'm pretty proud of that.

That reminds me, I have to pay my phone bill today. Pardon me while I go do that.

Day 8--Short Term Goals for the Month and Why

2011-07-15T09:16:00.002-04:00

Short term goals:

1. Start packing. I move in exactly one month from today, and I have done absolutely nothing. That's not good.

2. Have the most amazing weekend in West Lafayette for Beef's 21st. We'll go ahead and check that one off the list now, because I know it's going to be the best weekend ever.

3. Go to the financial aid office to straighten out this paper nonsense.

4. Put the Glee soundtrack onto discs for F.Money.

5. Call my mom on her birthday.

6. See my Munchkin? :)

Day 7--Someone Who Has Had A Large Impact on You [Recently]

2011-07-15T09:12:00.004-04:00

I'll dedicate this one to you, since you leave next week. I doubt you know exactly how much I learned from you. Ask me one day, I'll tell you. Anyway, you have turned into one of the coolest people I've ever met, and you've impacted my life more than I ever thought you would. You're awesome. Thank you. :D

Day 6--Your Favorite Superhero and Why

2011-07-15T09:07:00.002-04:00

This is a really hard question to answer, and I debated it for a long time. Each have their own things that make them sufficiently bad ass. Here's my final decision though:

Batman.
Why? He kicks ass and takes names all without the aid of super powers. He just uses gadgets and some serious skill. That makes him the top superhero in my book.

...

2011-07-15T07:06:00.000-04:00

DAMNIT.

Day 5--A Photo of Somewhere You've Been

2011-07-11T20:05:00.003-04:00

Busch Gardens. I go here every time I go to Florida. This is where my cousin Deryk and I go to hang out. It's one of my favorite places for that reason. We always have such profound conversation while waiting in line for this very ride. The Sheikra. It's probably my favorite coaster in the park. I guess there's a new one though, so I'll have to try that one out when I'm there in November.

On another note, I miss Florida. I usually go every year for spring break, but that didn't happen this year. I decided to go for Deryk's graduation, that didn't happen either. I'm going for Thanksgiving. I will. It's the first purchase I'm making after my kickback check gets here. I will not postpone this trip any longer. I miss my family. I miss the fun I have down there. I will go. :D

Day Four--A Habit You Wish You Didn't Have.

2011-07-10T15:46:00.001-04:00

I bite my nails. It's awful, and I know it. When my nails are painted, they don't get touched. I'm much to lazy to keep up with that though, so I am a nail biter. Worse things have happened though, right?

Day Three--A Picture of you and Your Friends

2011-07-08T20:48:00.003-04:00

Kayla and Jen.
These two have been the best friends a person can have.
I love them both.
This is a picture from a couple weeks ago when they came to B-Town to see Josh Kelley. :)
They are the greatest! :)

Season 4, Episode 19

2011-07-07T21:09:00.004-04:00

"I want to see the good in people. I choose to see the good in people. Getting into someone's mind and trying to find the god awful thing that happened to them that caused them to do that god awful thing to somebody else has seriously impaired my ability to giggle, it makes my brain all wonky, and I don't like it." --Kristen Vangsness [Penelope Garcia, Criminal Minds]

I am much too obsessed with this show. The scarier part? I'm completely okay with that.

Day Two--The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name

2011-07-07T19:06:00.003-04:00

"Living life, laughing the whole time"

My Blog name has changed several times since I've created it. I chose this one recently [about a week ago]. I chose it because it's always been kind of how I live. I'm not the kind of person who lets the little things [or sometimes even big things] get in my way. I don't let the things life presents me with stop me from living the way I want to live. So, I live my life, and laugh at the things it throws at me.

Day One-- A Picture of Yourself and 10 Random Facts About You

2011-07-06T21:15:00.004-04:00

I'll Be different this time around, I promise!

1. I can rub my stomach and pat my head at the same time.
2. I own more than 25 tank tops, most of which are from Aeropostale.
3. Criminal Minds has become my newest obsession. [Matthew Gray Gubler, you can come marry me anytime. :)]
4. Thanks to a friend of mine, I can now say that I am completely happy with myself.
5. My family is the most important thing to me. You don't like them, you don't like me. It's that simple.
6. Baking is quickly becoming my new favorite hobby.
7. I didn't know how to ride a bike until the age of 9.
8. When I swim, my legs are crossed. They do not get used at all.
9. I can tie a cherry stem, and unwrap a starburst with my tongue. :D
10. Dancing and singing are not skills I possess. I do both regularly.

30 Days of Blogging

2011-07-06T21:13:00.003-04:00

You know, I really liked that 30 day photo challenge thing that I did a while ago. I'm going to do something similar to that again. It's not entirely photos, so it's a little different. :)

Read This Carefully:

2011-07-02T20:49:00.003-04:00

It's been one of those days.

2011-06-30T22:08:00.002-04:00

Bad day. Going to sleep. Goodnight.

Capri Suns and 4 Horseman shots

2011-06-28T12:38:00.003-04:00

To you:

I will miss you. Good luck to you in everything you do. You are a great person, and a great friend. If you ever need anything, I'm here for you. Have fun, and take care of yourself. :)

xoxo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LAELAH!

2011-06-28T00:01:00.000-04:00

My Munchkin is one today! She's growing up! I'm proud to call her my niece. I love her! Happy Birthday, Laelah!

Love, Aunt Dani :)

June 23, 1932

2011-06-23T13:32:00.002-04:00

Today would have been his 79th birthday.

I think about him every time I look at that belt buckle sitting next to my bed. I miss him. He was such a great person.

To my Mom, my Aunt Kim, my Aunt Kelly, and my Uncle Curt:

You guys were the best thing that could have come from him. :) I have the best family in the world, and I thank him for that. :) I love you guys.

And to the higher powers that be, I hope he knows I miss him today, and every day. :)

Criminal Minds: My Newest Obsession

2011-06-23T00:19:00.003-04:00

"So it's a code. What do you need to crack it?" --Rossi

"The ability to clone myself and a years supply of Adderall." --Reid

I love this show for quotes like this.

2011-06-17T00:07:00.001-04:00

I'm on the edge of glory,
And I'm hanging on a moment of truth,
I'm on the edge of glory,
And I'm hanging on a moment with you.

What's this? A blog post? No way!

2011-05-27T23:25:00.004-04:00

Its been a while. Haha.

I've been crazy busy. Okay, not really. I've been incredibly lazy though. Is that a buy-able excuse?

I stumbled upon this today.

I loved it.

The answer is yes. At least, I would hope so. :)

news flash

2011-04-13T23:26:00.001-04:00

i do not want to do the college thing anymore. ugh. :/

My Idea of a Good Night?

2011-04-09T10:41:00.002-04:00

There is nothing more fun than just hanging out and talking to friends. I spent 4 hours doing this last night, and it was fantastic.

Chelsea, August is going to be faaaaaantastic. :) We are going to be the best roommates ever. So excited for tonight. :D Love youuuuuuuuuu!

Jory, I think I speak for both of us when I say that you are missed. Skype is the worlds greatest invention. Talking to you was such a good way to spend 3 hours. You rock, kid. :)

Hate your job?

2011-04-05T13:48:00.002-04:00

"Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar." --George Carlin

I'm a Big Kid Now...

2011-04-05T11:35:00.003-04:00

So true.

And so it begins.. the 30 Day Song Challenge!

2011-04-05T10:26:00.002-04:00

Day 1-- Your Favorite Song

Acoustic #3--Goo Goo Dolls
This song is fantastic. I've always loved it. It's a song I listen to when I need to relax or chill out. This got a lot of plays back in November.

every single time. :/

2011-03-30T21:18:00.002-04:00

Economics makes me hate college more and more each day. It is going to cost me SPEA, I can feel it.

Damn.

2011-03-29T22:39:00.002-04:00

[song. hold it against me. britney spears.]

Hey over there
Please forgive me
If I'm coming on too strong
Hate to stare
But you're winning
And they're playing my favorite song

So come here
'Little closer
Wanna whisper in your ear
Make it clear
Little question
Wanna know just how you feel

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Hey you might think
That I'm crazy
But you know I'm just your type
I might be 'little hazy
But you just cannot deny

There's a spark inbetween us
When we're dancing on the floor
I want more
Wanna see it
So I'm asking you tonight

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

[Spoken]
If I said I want your body
Would you hold It against me?

(Yeah) (Uh huh) (Oh)

Gimme something good
Don't wanna wait I want It now (na-na-now)
Pop It like a hood
And show me how you work It out

(Alright)

If I said my heart was beating loud

If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/britney-spears-lyrics/hold-it-against-me-lyrics.html ]

optimism vs. anxiety

2011-03-21T08:22:00.002-04:00

You know the one thing I always fail to budget for? Food.
You know what the consequence of that failure is? Severe anxiety over my ability to pay rent this summer.
You know what that is doing to me? I think I'm developing an ulcer.
Even though this is going on, I am trying to not think about it. I have better things to think about. Like not failing out of college. School sort of has to come first, right? OY VEY. I need to win the lottery.

"...you are my exception."

2011-03-06T23:22:00.001-05:00

He's Just Not That Into You has made me fall in love with Justin Long. Oy.

Day 30--A Picture of Someone You Miss!

2011-03-04T13:15:00.003-05:00

Kayla 'K-Bizzle' Beckman.

I MISS YOU, BEEF.

Okay, for real, I miss hanging out with her. She is the best friend ever, and we don't get to chill as much when classes are going on. Hanging out with Kayla is always a good time, and a lot of my favorite memories involve her. I love you, Beef!

Day 29--A Picture That Can Always Make You Smile

2011-03-03T08:53:00.004-05:00

This is for all the 'Kissy Pics'!

These pictures always make me smile. Why? A couple reasons, one being that I think I am the only one of our friends that has never legit kissed Chelsea, and yet we have at least 15 of these pictures. That and, look how cute she is. Wouldn't you smile at her? ;)
She is going to be the worlds greatest [for real] roommate!

Day 28--A Picture of Something You're Afraid of

2011-03-02T20:16:00.002-05:00

Bugs.
Creepy Crawlies, if you will.
I HATE bugs.
I hate them. They are awful, and creepy, and gross.
I DO NOT LIKE BUGS.

The 'What-If's" in Life

2011-03-01T14:44:00.005-05:00

If taking a semester off didn't carry such an overwhelmingly negative stigma, and a great deal of uncertainty, it would seriously be considered an option for me at this point. Too bad, though.
-----------------
I am hating college today.

Day 27--A Picture of You and a Family Member

2011-03-01T09:49:00.003-05:00

Momma.
Isn't she just the cutest? :) This is a picture from Thanksgiving this past year. We were lookin' super cute that day!

Something I've Noticed..

2011-03-01T08:18:00.003-05:00

I am missing classes left and right these past few weeks. I wouldn't call it any kind of 'insert year'-itis, but more a 'I don't have the drive to care right now'-itis. It's entirely my own doing, really. I know that in the end, regardless of what [or who] keeps me from focusing on school, the responsibility lies ultimately on myself. But why is it that this semester, a semester that is SO crucial to the rest of my academic career is the one I just can't bring myself to give a damn about? I really don't understand it. I just don't care about ANYTHING anymore. To be honest, I would be perfectly content doing absolutely nothing and turning into a hermit crab who lives in her room 24/7. But that is impractical. I need to give a damn. I need to gain the drive to rock this semester, but can I? I don't really know. I hope so.

Day 26--A Picture of Something That Means A Lot to You

2011-03-01T00:29:00.002-05:00

Purple-Cow-Moosey-Thing.

Funny thing is, I think this is really SUPPOSED to be a donkey. oh well. This is really one of my most favorite things ever. It was given to me by my beef on my 18th birthday. [well, the day before, since she ditched me on my birthday to go visit Purdue..]. This is a good symbol for our friendship, really. It's odd. It'd different. It's awesome. That's pretty much Kayla and I personified. He has always been perched somewhere I can see him. The silly little thing makes me laugh.

I love Purple-Cow-Moosey-Thing. :)

Day 25--A Picture of Your Favorite Day

2011-02-27T16:35:00.005-05:00

Road Trip Number Two.

Kylee! We had so much fun that day!
A morning filled with singy song goodness. :)
Can we do that again? KThanks.

Day 24--A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Change

2011-02-26T22:34:00.003-05:00

My Hair.
I really wish I hadn't gone so dark with my hair.
I like where it is now, but there are days where I really miss how cute it used to be.
Live and learn, I suppose. :p

Day 23--A Picture of Your Favorite Book

2011-02-25T01:28:00.002-05:00

In Cold Blood
by Truman Capote
This book is dark, but fantastic.
I'd give you a synopsis, but I'm far too tired.
I'm only doing this now because I know I'll forget to do this later in the day. :)

Quote of the Day:

2011-02-24T08:36:00.003-05:00

"Life's a beach and I'm just playing in the sand." -Lil Wayne

Day 22--A Picture of Something You Wish You Could do Better

2011-02-24T07:36:00.003-05:00

Bowling.
I wish I were better at this. I love it. I think bowling is fun. I am possibly the worst bowler this world has ever seen, though. It's pathetic how bad I am. If I was just a tiny bit better at this, that would make it a little less embarrassing. :D

Day 21--A Picture of Some[one] You Wish You Could Forget

2011-02-23T21:39:00.002-05:00

CT
Words cannot describe how much I wish I had never ever met her.
It still amazes me how I could have thought so highly of someone one minute, only to find myself being terrorized by them in the next. We had a great friendship, once upon a time. That is something I don't really want to forget. But all in all, I think my life would be exponentially better off had we never spoken to each other.

Day 20--A Picture of a Place You'd Like to Travel

2011-02-22T10:15:00.003-05:00

Dublin, Ireland.
Ireland, in general, really.
It is my life's goal to travel to this country.
I don't really have a good justification as to why aside from, it's beautiful.
And, I'm a sucker for cute boys with accents. :)

Day 19--A Picture and a Letter

2011-02-22T10:07:00.003-05:00

Deryk.

Dear Cousin,
I love our endless conversations on trying to pinpoint our relation. We solved that riddle back in March though, shame. I am so very excited to come see you graduate in June! It's going to be so much fun. I miss you, cuz!

Oh, Nostalgia...

2011-02-21T00:01:00.003-05:00

[Private Conversation. Lyle Lovett.]

And his hand it fell behind her
As his arm it reached around
And she looked at the window
And she watched the shade go down

It was a private conversation
No one heard her say
That the man she left behind her
Was two thousand miles away

Singing boy pick up that fiddle
And play that steel guitar
And find yourself a lady
And dance right where you are

There was a lonely girl from nowhere
With a smile all sweet with pain
And she never stopped to wonder
If she'd see him again

It was a private conversation
No one heard her say
That man that she was looking for
Was only twenty streets away

Singing boy pick up that fiddle
And play that steel guitar
And find yourself a lady
And dance right where you are

And the band it just kept playing
As she came walking in
And he never stopped to wonder
If he'd see her again

It was a private conversation
No one heard him say
That girl he left behind him
Was two thousand miles away

He just sang boy pick up that fiddle
And play that steel guitar
And find yourself a lady
And dance right where you are

And the moral of this story
Is I guess it's easier said than done
To look at what you've been through
And to see what you've become

It's a private conversation
No one hears you say
It's a private conversation

And his hand it fell behind her
As his arm it reached around
And she looked at the window
And she watched the shade go down

It was a private conversation
No one heard her say
It was a private conversation
No one heard him say
It was a private conversation
No one heard her say
It was a private conversation

P.S. See photo day #1...I told you so. :)

Day 18--A Picture of Your Biggest Insecurity

2011-02-20T23:42:00.003-05:00

The Crip.
Now, let me explain this one.
I want to be exceedingly clear that I am [on most days] 100% comfortable and happy with exactly who I am, crip and all. But it'd be silly to let you think that there aren't days where I think "hmm.. I wonder if this would work out better if I didn't have this issue?" It's a part of me, and I embrace it better than any person would assume. I am who I am, and I'm okay with that. But there are those days where it can get me down, so, I'd say it's my biggest insecurity.

Day 17--A Picture of Something That Has Changed Your Life Recently

2011-02-19T21:22:00.007-05:00

Laelah Renae.
My niece.
She's 8 months old.
She has definitely changed my life.
I didn't know how much I liked babies until she came around.
I love her.
I can't look at her without smiling. It's great.

Day 16--A Picture of Someone Who Inspires You

2011-02-18T23:10:00.003-05:00

Grandpa.
To put it simply, he said, "Don't fail out of college and I will be very proud of you."
Before I went off to college, he sent me a letter telling me how proud he was of me and that he wanted me to do well in life. And that, kids, is the most inspiring thing anyone can tell me.

Day 15--A Picture of Something You Want to do Before You Die

2011-02-17T08:10:00.002-05:00

Skydiving.
I want to go skydiving before I die.
It's my goal to do it before I'm 30, actually.
It just seems like such a thrill.
And if I die, how great a story would that be?

Quote of the Day:

2011-02-16T22:16:00.003-05:00

"You have enemies? Good. That means you actually stood up for something in your life."--Eminem

Day 14--A Picture of Someone You Couldn't Imagine Your Life Without

2011-02-16T08:20:00.004-05:00

My Dad.
I mean, let's face it, without him, I would have no life to possibly imagine living in without him. But seriously, I have been a daddy's girl since birth. I will be til the day I die. I can't imagine not having him around. I love my dad. :)

Day 13--A Picture of Your Favorite Band/Artist

2011-02-15T11:42:00.002-05:00

Sara Bareilles.
Rather than go with my favorite band of all time, which--for those of you who don't know--is Flogging Molly (23 days!), I went with my current musical obsession. That is presently Ms. Sara Bareilles. Kaleidoscope Heart is a fantastic album. I love how delightfully bubbly she is. It makes for great music to get ready to. Kudos. :)

Day 12--A Picture of Something You Love

2011-02-14T21:23:00.003-05:00

Indian Food.
I love Indian food.
I am craving shrimp vindaloo somethin' awful.

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

2011-02-14T21:20:00.001-05:00

I got to spend it with my Munchkin!

Love her!

Day 11--A Picture of Something You Hate

2011-02-13T11:46:00.003-05:00

Broken Hearts.
I definitely hate these.
They aren't good for anyone, ever.
My heart goes out to everyone struggling with one.
Everything WILL get better.
And to you, I love you. I love you a lot. I got your back girl. Always.

Day 10--A Picture of the Person You Do the Most ****** Up Things With

2011-02-12T09:23:00.007-05:00

Kayla.
I think this goes without saying. She and I have gotten into so many shenanigans together. Case and point? This picture right here. Taco Bell. Her 20th birthday, i.e. GREATEST WEEKEND EVER. Seriously though, I know that if I want to have a fun time, filled with questionable activity, and more importantly, epic coloring, I call her. Love ya, Beef. :D

Chelsea.
Once again, I feel like this picture totally symbolizes our friendship. It just so happens that we are laughing over the word 'cookie', which represents a day filled with crazy things that we got ourselves into. She is my 'IU best friend', but she is also that person that I can ALWAYS have fun with, no matter what the occasion. I can always count on her to be there when I get myself into some ****** up situations. :D

So, I cheated again. But really, how am I supposed to capture both of these two and how they each bring out the best/worst in me with just one picture? Cant do it. Anyways.

Day 9--A Picture of Someone Who Has Gotten You Through the Most

2011-02-11T19:18:00.003-05:00

My Family.
While I could think of a couple people who have helped me get through a lot in the more recent months, the ones who have ALWAYS been there have been my family. Not all of them are represented in this picture, obviously, but these people in addition to my brother Sean and my Dad are the ones who keep me sane when things get a little too insane. I love all of you. :)

Day 8--A Picture That Makes You Laugh

2011-02-10T08:37:00.008-05:00

Bowling Night 2011
I knew as soon as I saw what I had to post today, that the picture had to come from this night. This is because I don't know that I've laughed harder at any other point in time, at least recently.

Picture #1
This is Chelsea and Jory. I believe they were high-fiving after their group effort at bowling. Both bowled at the same time? maybe? Jory was clearly excited about this.

Picture #2.
I have to have two pictures, because one just simply didn't do it for me. This picture is one of Jory attacking me, for a reason I know not of. We apparently thought it was funny. Look at our faces.

Day 7--A Picture of Your Most Treasured Item

2011-02-09T18:24:00.003-05:00

Kylee & Chelsea's Couch.
Okay, so this isn't MINE, but it is definitely the most treasured thing to me.
Why? This couch is always open to me. It always has been.
I suppose this is a more a reflection on how this apartment is always open to me, no matter what.
When stuff got bad last semester, this is where I slept. I would have died without this place to go.
So, it is my most favorite item.
Thank you, C-Wikka and Kylee.
Love you guys!

My Newest "Wake-Up" Song

2011-02-08T08:20:00.002-05:00

Click Here!

Florence + The Machine--Dog Days Are Over

Day 6--A picture of a Person You'd Love to Trade Places With for a Day

2011-02-08T08:07:00.004-05:00

Guy Fieri
Food Network Superstar
Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives.
Guy's Big Bite.
And some Tailgating show that I have yet to see.
The main reason I would like to trade places with him for a day is solely for his Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives job. I would love nothing more than to travel the country finding hole in the wall restaurants that specialize in making quirky, awesome foods. How cool would that be?
I could bring fame to the next Peanut Butter Burger. :)

Day 5--A Picture of Your Favorite Memory

2011-02-07T19:43:00.003-05:00

Beef's 20th Birthday Weekend.
Does this picture not speak for itself?
This was actually taken the day after Kayla's birthday.
This night was fun, to say the least.
I love hanging out with her.
And let's not forget Jen.
Those two are my favorite people ever.
Any memory with them is a definite favorite.

Look! New Blog Design!

2011-02-06T13:26:00.003-05:00

How awesome is this?!

I love it!!!

Also, if I could win the lottery, that would make my life one hell of a lot easier.

Have a lovely day!

Day 4--A Picture of Your Favorite Night

2011-02-06T11:33:00.003-05:00

This is definitely one of the best nights I've ever had.
NYE 2009/2010.
I went to see Kayla up at Purdue.
Words cannot describe to you how much fun I had. :)

Day 3.

2011-02-05T11:04:00.006-05:00

A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show:

This one is a tie, for sure.
I love Glee.
And I love Grey's Anatomy.
These are the two shows I watch habitually.
Great TV, guys. :)

Day 2, In Addition:

2011-02-04T22:12:00.002-05:00

While I have not known her quite as long as I've known Sam, Kayla has been my beef for a long long time. We have had some really qtastic times together, and I refuse to imagine how my life would be without her around. Again, We have not been close the longest, but she really needs to be a part of this topic. Love ya, Beef!!

Day 2 :)

2011-02-04T19:42:00.006-05:00

A picture of you and the person you've been closest to for the longest:
Samantha.

Sam and I have been friends since.. 3rd grade? 8, 9? Something like that. A really long time.
We were 14 in this picture, this was taken the day I moved to Indiana. Sad day, indeed.
She has always been one of the people that I know I can call for whatever reason.
She may live in Georgia, and It may have been since my 15th birthday that we last saw each other, but i can say that we're still quite close. I love her to bits. :)

30 Day Photo Challenge- Day 1

2011-02-03T18:19:00.006-05:00

This is a spreading around facebook like wildfire.
anyway. its a 30 day photo challenge. I like the idea.

Day One- A photo of yourself, along with 10 facts about you:

1. I can roll my tongue

2. I lack any and all dancing abilities.
3. The song "Private Conversation" by Lyle Lovett is committed to my memory.
4. The best color in the world is yellow.
5. I will be 21 in 79 days.
6. I love Indian food more than I love some people.
7. Cleaning while listening to music is the one thing I can count on to chill me out.
8. Dogs will win over cats every time.
9. I hate the smell of just picked roses.
10. I am watching scrubs and have just about died laughing, twice.

2011 Shout outs. :)

2011-01-23T20:55:00.017-05:00

The shout out post is my favorite one of the whole year. It is my chance to tell all of you how much I love you. :D I hope everyone like it, and if you don't, go away! :)

BEEF

Beef, what to say about you? You are the bread to my butter. You are the glue that holds me together most days. Whatever would I do without our consistently 30 minute long phone calls? You are the best friend a girl could ever ask for. You are impossibly hilarious and probably one of the nicest people I have ever met. You and me, we're going to be friends forever. Thanks for always being the one I can call for any reason whatsoever. You are "top of the line beef" for sure. :) I love you, bitch.

CHELSEA [C-WIKKA WIKKA]

Roommate soul-mates? Yes please. You have been the worlds greatest friend this year. You have saved me from countless breakdowns. I love our Applebees dates and our movie nights. Living with you is about to be a blast. We have had so many awesome memories in just one year. [ahem..cookie..] I cannot wait til august. Oh, the hilarity that will ensue!! You are a great girl to have around. Dont you forget that. :)

KYLEE

Our car sing-a-longs are the bestest! You were the best finite buddy ever. [too bad that didn't work out as well as we'd hoped. well. not for me anyway. :p] I'm glad we're friends. You're quite funny, and I enjoy laughing with you [and at you... :)]. Can we please hang out more? Thanks.

ANGELA

One word. HOCKEY. You are the only person around this town that understands that part of me. You and I will be friends forever based on this fact alone. That, and the fact that you're awesome. duh. Seriously though, you are fantastic. Hanging out with you is quickly becoming one of my more favorite things to do. Love you!

JORY

J-Rad. Ha. You crack me up, kid. It took all that was in me not to put the "squirrel face" picture up here, but on the off chance that you'll ever see this, I decided to be nice to you. Anyways.. You're a pretty fun guy. You are that person that tells me exactly what I don't want to hear, and I actually like that about you. You listened to me ramble about everything nobody cares about and you did it for a whole week. Kudos to you for that, bud. But really, its nice to have you around. Thanks for being awesome.

PWSSSSSSSSHHHHHH
Quit eating indian food without me, and we'll get along just fine. Bahahaha! You are a great person and I like having you as a friend. Come July, we're about to hang out all the time. I hope C-Wikka is okay with this. If not, meh. She be fine. :)

CHRISTIANA

F-Moneyyyyy! What to say about you? Thanks for eating nasty things and allowing me to laugh at your expense. You da best. :) haha. No no, You really are a great little weasel. And those dance skills? Outta this world! As weird as this may sound to you, you are like the little sister my mother never gave me. You are so fun. :D

LAELAH

Hey Munchkin! Look at how cute you are! Ugh! It just makes me smile to look at that face. Lets face it, you're a baby. You're never going to read this. But I love you! I love you a whole bunch! I cant wait to babysit you in a few weeks! I'm going to be the best aunt you'll ever have! I love you, Munchkin!!!

SEAN

You're on here because I feel like publicly announcing this to the world. Look at you. You have grown up so much in just a short time. You are a great daddy. That little girl is going to grow up to adore you, so you know. Keep it up. Oh, and I cannot wait til Flogging Molly. I feel like going to a concert with my big brother is going to be the best time ever!

back to those traditional new years posts.. 23 days late..

2011-01-23T16:27:00.002-05:00

Its 23 days into 2011 and I have yet to do the "traditional" new years posts. So, that's what this next bunch of postings are going to be devoted to. :) First things first.

TOP 10 OF 2010

10. NYE in WL with Beef and crew. What a blast!
9. The Father-Daughter day during SB '10. Love ya, Dad.
8. Getting a legitimate job.
7. Homecoming 2010. ...cookie..
6. SPELUNKING.
5. Sitting at Matter Park with Beef smokin' hookah in her car. :)
4. That entire week leading up to NYE '11 and the few days that followed. SO much fun. :p
3. Beef's birthday weekend. Crazy weekend? Oh yes.
2. Being friends with you. :)
1. Realizing that I am entirely comfortable in my own skin and being happy with exactly who I am despite what others may tell me about myself.

new year, new strategy.

2011-01-20T08:55:00.002-05:00

Well, its 20 days into 2011, and I haven't done any of my traditional "new year" posts. Those are coming, I promise. This post is not one of those, however.

Listen, Chelsea, you want to act like a child? You want to play games? Fine. Last semester I did not cave to your childish and downright idiotic antics, but if this is how you want to go about things, so be it. You want to take my markers and eat my food? You go right ahead. I've got some things up my sleeve as well. You want a war, brace yourself. I do not play nicely with bullies. I'm not saying I'm going to harm you or your things. That would be a threat, which is illegal. I don't really think you're at all worth the jail time. But if you want to act like a child, I can be just as childish. You want to ignore me when I speak to you? Kay. You want to take my [clean] dishes out of the dishwasher and then make them dirty once more? Okay fine. Just saying, I can play your game too. And I intend to if you keep this 5 year old bullshit up. You're nothing but an immature, childish, bully. You will have to live with that. You will have to live with the choices you have made, just as I will have to live with mine. The difference? I can sleep knowing that I did not resort to such stupid lows as you have. I can sleep knowing that I was the mature one. But as I said, that can all go out the window if you keep acting this way. Kisses! :)

take just a second...

2011-01-12T21:12:00.002-05:00

...and look at how cute she is!
Laelah Renae, 6 months.
I love her!

...

2011-01-10T20:20:00.000-05:00

DAMN IT ALL TO HELL AND BACK. THIS BLOWS.

Winter Evening, by Febreeze

2011-01-05T00:28:00.001-05:00

Smells like a nice smelling boy. delicious.
that is all.