The long list of emotions that I am currently feeling.

Excited.
Tired.
Annoyed.
Envious.
Determined.
Lazy.
Cold.
Happy.
Bummed.
Nervous.
Optimistic.
Pessimistic.
A general sense of "I don't give a fuck"
Did I mention tired?
Goodnight.

new favorite quote

"In the end we will conserve only what we love; we will love
only what we understand; and we will understand only
what we are taught."
-Baba Dioum, 1968

well. this oughta be fun.

I found out yesterday that my family, in its entirety, is moving back to Michigan.
Mom, Arjay, Logan, and Sean, will be moving back. [Mom says its about 95% certain at this point] All that's left for them to do is find a place. and to go up there and train a bit. [Arjay on the inspection routes and mom on the paperwork and computer stuff]

I'm trying my best to be supportive here, really, I am. Here's the thing though, while I agree that this is a good thing for Arjay [the job pays a ton more than what he's making now, I guess], and this is good for mom and Logan, too, this is bad for me. Not because I lose the ability to pay for school, because I've done the research, and it doesn't, but because I lose my family.

I may not be super duper close with my mom and family, but dammit, I don't want them to live 5 1/2 hours away from me.. that sort of knocks out any chance I have to go home. Not to mention, I will lose contact with a lot of my friends based out of Marion because of this. Gas City will no longer be a place I will travel to anymore. Granted, most my friends have moved out on their own now anyway, but still. The main time we get together is during holiday breaks. I now have nowhere to stay in that town, and therefore, will no longer be able to do that. When I go home for holidays, it will be Michigan that I travel to.

Beef, because I know your read this, I'm pretty upset about the fact that I can't come see you at home anymore. Please don't drift away from me!

Anyway, back to the major problem. I am losing my entire support system. They're gone. And it sucks.

But I am supportive of it, because it's good for the family. But can you blame me for wanting them to be just as close as they are now? ugh. I'm being whiny.


P.S. I'm not usually one to correct grammar, but there are a TON of comma splices in this blog. Sorry about that. :p

if my head weren't attached..

it'd probably be spinning off into another world right now..

i have been so crazy busy and stressed out for about a week straight now.
i'm ready for bloomington, simply because only then will things slow down a bit.
jeeze.
i need a breather.
and some ivanhoes.