Monday, April 28, 2008

making a list.

the grad party invite list.
im making a mental note of this.

people arent in any particular order.
if you are first, it does not mean i love you more.
if you are last, it does not mean i love you less.

  1. jo
  2. kayla
  3. gabby
  4. carrie
  5. bethany
  6. caressa
  7. ereck
  8. jennifer
  9. shay
  10. mariah
  11. lacey
  12. jimmy
  13. bobbyjack
  14. steven
  15. willis
  16. allie
  17. ann
  18. jen
  19. rebecca
  20. nathan
  21. thomas
  22. samantha
  23. raver
  24. ashley
  25. luke
  26. rebe
  27. cammy
  28. daniel
  29. tyra

  1. mom
  2. arjay
  3. dad
  4. grandma clarke
  5. grandpa clarke
  6. grandma malley
  7. aunt kelly
  8. uncle lee
  9. aunt kim
  10. uncle barry
  11. *aunt sherry
  12. *uncle jim
  13. *zak
  14. *mitch
  15. *TJ
  16. margie


  1. mrs. phillippe
  2. mr. tippey
  3. mrs. miller
if i left anyone out.
yell at me for it.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Barack Obama Saturday.

allie and i have tickets to go see obama tomorrow.
yay for us.

im excited about this.


Thursday, April 24, 2008

Hands Held High--Linkin Park

i heard these lyrics for the first time this morning in carrie's car.
it was 7am, and i still thought they were amazing lyrics.. so they're worth posting.

these really speak to me...



Turn my mike up louder I got to say something

Light weights step to the side when we come in

Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running

Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping

Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and

Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping

Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for

Cause I
'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for

Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor

Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank

These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the cheque
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect

For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"


In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen

World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions

Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep

Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away

It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes

My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show

My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine

On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die

Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"


With hands held high into the sky so blue,
As the ocean opens up to swallow you.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday dear daaaaaaaaaani.
happy birthday to me.

yay for being 18.
thank you to all who told me happy birthday.
i love you guys.

today was an uneventful day for the most part, but i did hang out with willis, steven, hodson, and kyra. it was fun. thank you to you guys for not letting me be bored all day.

thanks to gabby for the dairy queen adventure.

sorry for beating you with a coke can willis.
that was unintentional.
i promise.


Tuesday, April 22, 2008

only 5 more hours...

TIL IM 18.

i really need to do something illegal tonight.
i know! i'll download a song at 11:59. thats what i'll do.
it wont be near as satisfying as say, kicking the crap out of some helpless person,
but it'll have to do. xD

i hope youre proud of yourself.
we're going on 11 days of straight rise against.
are you happy with yourself?
you should be. this is amazing. :]

ok. enough of random thoughts.
on to ap chem and algebra homework.


Monday, April 21, 2008

Bricks--Rise Against


When faith alone is not enough,
To keep our heads barely above,
We look for reason and come up empty-handed.
And when our children fight our wars,
While we sit back just keeping score,
We're teaching murder not understanding now.

We're setting the fires to light the way,
We're burning it all to begin again,
With hope in our hearts and bricks in our hands,
We sing for change

The lives our buried sons have laid,
Won't cancel debts we've yet to pay,
In death, we justify anything now,
As long as we blindly obey and do exactly what they say,
We'll have no one to blame, but ourselves now.

We're setting the fires to light the way,
We're burning it all to begin again,
With hope in our hearts and bricks in our hands,
We sing for change.

We run on the fumes of injustice,
We'll never die with the fuel that you give us,
Keep it coming 'cause I'm prepared to burn,
Keep running, find me at every turn.

Your life around,
(into something true, into something true)
So turn your life around,
(into something true, something true)

We're setting the fires to light the way,
We're burning it all to begin again,
With hope in our hearts and bricks in our hands,
We sing for change.

Saturday, April 19, 2008


today is willis' birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLISSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Thursday, April 17, 2008

in response to allies *soundtrack to your life*

the soundtrack to my life...hmmmm.

lets start with the givens, shall we...

1. if i ever leave this world alive--flogging molly
2. dreamed i could fly--my dad
3. without you--rent soundtrack
4. whats left of the flag--flogging molly

now for the fun stuff...

5. here comes the sun--the beatles
6. music of the night--andrew lloyd webber--phantom of the opera
7. the one--backstreet boys
8. once in a while--dishwalla
9. one jump ahead-- the aladdin soundrack [yeah, thats right]
10. i'll be--edwin mccain
11. finale B--rent soundtrack
12. somewhere over the rainbow--judy garland
13. rhythm of the night--moulin rouge soundtrack
14. no strings attatched--nsync [for bethany, of course]
15. shadow of the day--linkin park [its the alliedaniwillis song]
16. wonderwall--oasis
17. innocent--our lady peace
18. the longest line--noFX
19. we are broken--paramore
20. empty apartment--yellowcard
21. for good--wicked soundtrack
22. not my time--three doors down
23. gone forever--three days grace

there it is.
i like it.

hey guess what.

ID [interdisciplinary] MADE STATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be happy.
im stoked.

that is all.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Academic Team is at an End.

Area was last night.
we did really well.


[those were my teams]

[2nd]--Fine Arts--17/25
[5th]--Social Studies--11/25[yikes]

there were only 6 schools that we were competing against.
overall, we did great last night.
that, however, proved to be a pointless effort.

the only team that made it to state was Math.

now allow me to rant.

ya see, you cant challenge questions or answers to questions, you can only challenge procedure.
there, you needed to know that before i continue.

there was one question at the end of the English round. *How were Emily Dickinson's view on the war similar to those of Walt Whitman?* the answer was *similar, but less verbose.* they said the answer was *the reverse* this is wrong. or at least, thats what we believe. [and we're good at interpreting stuff, so we're right.] because of this, we missed the question. and because we missed the question, we didnt go to state. purdue...ugh. they suck hardcore. [they're the ones that write all the questions] fuck you purdue. you screwed us over in ID too. ugh.....
its not a huge deal, so we didnt get to state. i'll get over it. but its just kinda dumb, we didnt get the answers wrong because we were wrong. we got them wrong because PURDUE was wrong. why should we be penalized for their error? why?
im done ranting.

in other news.
today is Daniel's birthday. hes 17.
i know hes not going to read this, but i'll give him a mini shout out anyways.

happy birthday friend.

ugh. today is not a fun day.
not at all.
im all pessimistic. i hate it.
i hate being sdlfjasfkljsadfk-y
kajdlfasjfdklasfj is the best description for my mood i guess.

bye bye.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

the 'Q' words

the q words are words that kayxlaface and i made up last year. i dont remember why, but we did. the only people that sound right using the q words, is us. you can try, but it may not work. heres the list.


Qrap [not a favorite]
Qface [not sure how i would apply this one..but its fun]

ok. i know there are more.
i'll ask kayxlaface tomorrow. she'll know.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

a wee little update. =]

hmm. lets see.

half day. jen, kayla, and i went to ivanhoes. i had a yuuuuuuuummy sammich, and i ate my weight in ice cream. it was a lovely time. after that, we went to the tard park. great fun. i love those two.

nothing happened. woo.

amazing day. lock-in. the portland crew came [ive named them the portland crew. i like that. xD] so did jo. i love that jo came. i think the night was pretty fun, it had its dull moments, but so does every i dont know how to fix that particular problem. allie willis and steven were there. it was a hoot. i love them lots.

i just woke up, 3:45. gotta love it. now im blogging.

hey. guess what. i actually understand my ap chem stuff pretty well. do you know how awesome that is? do you know how RARE that is? im pretty stoked about it.
ok. im done for now. i'll talk to you guys later.


Friday, April 11, 2008

I've Come to Realize..

1. I've come to realize that my boobs...
are quite lovely.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk...
i ramble. and i love it.

3. I've come to realize that when I love someone...
i'll do anything for them.

4. I've come to realize that I need...

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
my camera cord

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...
i cant fix things.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
i probably cant stand up.

8. I've come to realize that money...
is a lovely lovely thing

9. I've come to realize that people...
cannot be trusted.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be...

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on...
no one

12. I've come to realize that I enjoy...
hanging with the friends

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
is not real.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...
i was reaaaaaaaaaaally tired.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night..
i look at the pictures on my wall.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about..
the lock-in.

17. I've come to realize that babies...
are oodles of fun.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace...
i feel major disappointment.

19. I've come to realize that I love listening to...
hit the lights.<3>

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

It's Ok, I'm American...

willis and steven are the two most amazing individuals on the planet.
i love you two.

hoo rah.


Sunday, April 6, 2008

Bethany Mills


now, i sing you a song.

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy biiiiiiiiirthday deaaaaaaaar bethanyyyyy
happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuu!

i love you dear.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Superlatives [jacked from allie]

most likely to drive me insane--
most likely to make me laugh-- kayla beckman, allie pence, jordan willis [gasp, i used his first name..]
most likely to love me no matter what-- dad, and the rest of my family
most likely to die in a mosh pit-- ann robison, sean foster
best attitude--
best hair-- allie pence, willis, joanna foor
most likely to annoy me on purpose-- bobby-jack chapman
most likely to go on a road trip with me-- stacey teagle, kayla beckman
best taste in music-- carrie penrod, sean foster, deryk berger
most likely to always be there-- samantha rayburn
most likely to cheer me up-- allie pence, samantha rayburn, dad, jordan willis [i did it again], stephanie severson
most likely to pick me up when i fall [both figuratively and literally..]-- samantha rayburn, bobby-jack chapman
biggest heart-- stephanie severson, bethany mills
biggest ego-- sean foster
smartest person-- kayla beckman, joanna foor, gabby sell
most likely to break a bone doing something dumb-- sean foster, bobby-jack chapman, willis

more to come...

Thursday, April 3, 2008

lyrics[and more college news]

ok, IU offered me more cash.
they upped the offer from $17,857 to $18,467 [$610 added]
im stoked.

now for lyrics. every time i hear this song, the lyrics really stick out.

--less than jake--

Dear "you won't answer me" did you honestly think i'd ever leave?
if you'd somehow just believe me
you've gotta know right now that these words still sting
i've lost everything i've ever touched
the results were eating me up for once i've had enough

landmines-landslides no matter how i try
landmines-landslides every single time

i fell asleep while watching tv
while the living dead
they walk my streets this evening
this sitting target's been stuck on the couch again
pretending i'm stable as the panic sets in
the results were eating me up for once i've had enough

landmines-landslides no matter how i try
i'm destined for disaster a failure by design
landmines-landslides every single time
i'm destined for disaster i'm trapped on every side

you know how hard i try sometimes
you can see it in my eyes
it's always eating me alive the day to day of getting by
self-control from all the helplessness i've known
i'm a wreck lacking confidence there's no arguments you know

landmines-landslides no matter how i try
i'm destined for disaster a failure by design
landmines-landslides every single time
i'm destined for disaster
i'm trapped on every side

whoa... whoa...
landmines-landslides every single time
i'm destined for disaster
i'm trapped on every side

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

ya know what..scratch that last post.

screw purdue.
IU not only WANTS me. they're giving me a hell of a lot of cash to go there, so...
its ok.
i guess.

so i guess im IU bound..

i am in possibly one of the worst moods ever right now.
i finally got my purdue letter.

...i didnt get in..
apparently, they cant accept me because my *academic records did not meet requirement*.
i was too dumb.

i know i still have IU, but most of you know, IU is NOT where i wanted to go.
not at all.