There are some people that I encounter in my life and I just can't help but wonder "What the hell is wrong with you?" I just encountered one of these people.
I was getting coffee here at the Starbucks in the union and while I was walking back to my table this girl gives me the most obvious stare as I walked by her. Normally I don't notice [nor do I normally give a damn] these stares I get from people, but this girl was SHAMELESS. I'm talkin' head turned as I passed, watched me walk all the way back to the table from the counter. I looked up and met her eyes as she stared at me just after she let out a giggle. Now, I can only assume that I gave her a look that could kill, because she immediately got this sad look on her face, apologized, and walked away awfully quickly.
I get it. I walk funny. Congratulations, girl in Starbucks, you now know what I've known my whole life. Next time? Just ask me what's wrong with me. Making up a story is so much more fun that having the overwhelming urge to slap the stupid off your face.
That being said, let me just vent a smidge about this.
Yes, I am a 'twee bit crippled' [Thanks, Chels, for reminding me of that the other day. You're hilarious. :p] For those of you who don't really know what's wrong, I'll take the time to tell you. I was born 2 months premature, and as a result of that, I have what they call Cerebral Palsy. It affected the Achilles tendon in my heels. I used to walk A LOT worse than I do now, but that's mostly because I've had three surgeries to attempt to correct the issue. The second one fixed my left leg, but it apparently didn't stick with the right one. So, when I was 14 we gave it another shot. That one worked in the sense that I can now put my right heel to the ground. Other than that, though, I would consider the last surgery I had to be ineffective. I was upset about this once upon a time, but now not so much.
That's just me, and I'm okay with that. But it's times like today where I'm just dumbfounded by people. Staring? Okay, I get that. It's different. You can't help it. Whatever. But laughing? Come on, you're in college now. Grow up a little. When you giggle, you don't make me depressed or sad. You piss me off. You must be one ignorant person to find that funny, and you must lack brain cells all together to think that I don't know that you're doing it. Next time remember this:
I'm much more than just a girl who walks funny. I'm one of the nicest people you'd ever meet. I can be the best friend you'd ever have. I think I'm kinda funny. I'm pretty smart when I try hard enough. I have the ability to laugh at myself, and I'm completely okay with who I am. Can you say the same? No, probably not. You're probably the kind of person who thrives on the acceptance of others, and you crumble without it. Me? Nah. You don't like me? Fine. I don't really need you to like me. I've got the best friends that I could ask for. So, girl in Starbucks, think before you stare at someone who doesn't prance around in leggings and sperrys just like you. Think next time.
Okay. I'm done ranting now. Have a lovely day everyone. :)
Talking to that person who somehow always makes you feel even the tiniest bit better does absolutely nothing, and looking at pictures of things that make you smile somehow don't do the trick either. I'm going to bed.
I've created a Frank Sinatra station on Pandora. I love it. I wish they still made music like this. Funny, huh? When I was little I would always whine when my grandpa played music like that, and now I listen to it all the time. He'd be proud, that's for sure. :)
Anyway, on with this 30 days of blogging stuff. I'm not following the same list anymore, so it's a little different. Today's post? A picture of yourself from a year ago followed by one from now. Accompanied by a description of how I feel I've changed. This'll be fun.
How am I different? Hmm. I feel like I'm a lot happier now, for a variety of reasons. If I've learned anything from the last year it's to not let things get to me. That was one of the harder lessons to learn in life, but I did it, and it definitely helps. I have a life that I'm happy with, friends that I would die without, and a family who I miss somethin' awful. [Hey guys, I know you read this. COME SEE ME.]
I think I finally figured out what I want to do with my life, and that's great. I guess I'm just generally a happier and better person now than I was a year ago. :)
Today marks the start of my third week of classes. I skipped a class this afternoon. I had lunch with Kayla. Met people. All in all, it was a lovely way to spend 45 minutes. I think I missed a movie, so I'm not heartbroken. Here's to a great semester, kids!
Because I failed at this the first time I attempted it, and because my darling roommate is harassing me about not posting on this enough, I'm starting that 30 day challenge thing over again. It's the only way I can force myself to actually write in this thing at the moment. However, it's getting rather difficult for me to give you 15 NEW interesting facts. [I'm apparently not that interesting. hmm.] So if the list doesn't quite get to 15, my bad. Anyway.
Day One-- A Picture of You and 15 'Interesting' Facts About You
1. I could claim residence in the IMU. Not kidding. I spend way too much time here.
2. I will rinse a cup out three times before I use it, even if I know it's clean.
3. I could wear jeans and hoodies year round. I've done it. See this picture? I just took it. It's 80 degrees outside right now. [But I swear to you, its -30 in Starbucks. Jesus.]
4. College has taught me a lot of things, but the most important thing I've learned is that it's not really the classes you take or the degree you get, but the life you live while you're here that matters most.
5. I forgive entirely too easily.
6. I am perfectly content listening to music instead of watching TV. I can get more out of music sometimes.
7. If you walked into my apartment you'd think my roommate and I were the most self-absorbed people in the world. But really, we just have lots of friends who like taking pictures with us. :)
8. I can't cook nearly as well as I feel I should be able to. My mother would be disappointed.
10. I hate sleeping past noon, but not sleeping til at least ten really bothers me.
11. I have mini panic attacks every time I find myself standing at the top of a flight of stairs. Not kidding. It always takes me a second or two before I start walking down them.
12. I always start walking with my right foot forward, and I count steps as I walk up them. Always.
13. I have an extreme fear of getting stuck in an elevator. I try and avoid them, even if that means walking up a ton of stairs.
14. I own a mac now, and I love it. But when it comes time to buy a new computer, I don't know that I'll buy another one.
15. There are only a handful of people I go to when I'm upset, and there's an even smaller group of people I would trust to not laugh at me for the stupid things I'm upset over sometimes.