battle scar

ok. two things in this post.

1. FLOGGING MOLLY HAS NEW MUSIC. ZOMG! clicky here.

2. i know that anyone that reads this has heard about it by now.
i fell down the stairs today. and it was sooooooooooo not cool.
i was walking just fine. i didnt trip over my own feet, i didnt skip a step. i think i may have got a knee to the backpack, and thats what sent my flying. [superman style]
i fell down about 6 steps.
i landed on my side, hit my head, and rolled onto my face.
my glasses got bent in the roll, and then sliced my face. i have a two inch laceration above my left eyebrow. it bled, alot. and by alot, i mean... i heard about 100 *oh my god!*'s and another 2o *Holy shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit*'s while on my frantic run to the nurse. she bandaged it up, arjay came and got me. mom met me at the ER. the hospital glued it shut. [invisible stitches] and i got a tetnus shot.
im ok.
i repeat. IM OK.

i have a headache, and my arm hurts a lot [from the shot]
but im fine.

thanks to everyone who showed concern for me, but especially bobbyjack.
he was the one that helped me to the nurses office and played the role of *omg, my best friend is bleeding and im scared for her* it was really nice.

i was gonna post some photos, but i cant find the cord. soooooo...when i do..photos will get uploaded.

>>dani

ahaha. photos.


i took these on thursday. right after i got home from the hospital.
it doesnt look that horrible, i know...
hurts like hell though.
but im a tough cookie. <---thats what allie says
plus, advil certainly helps.

Hamilton Heights Invitational

woo for invitational!

science-- 16/25 <---i think we got 4th [ew]
english-- 19/25 <--- we got first! [woo yeah]
i gots a pretty blue ribbon. yay.

bravo to everyone.
but especially, jo, gabby, nathan, kaity, and stacey.
woo.
yay us.

>>dani

the long awaited willis post.

yeah dood.
i told you i'd do it.

but before i do that.. update.
i went to steak n shake with jen and rebecca today.
it was great fun. those two are fun individuals.

i has me a vitamin water. nuf said.
im rocking out to rent<3 uhhh...sam is doing better. [better meaning, only slightly less horrible] ive yet to actually talk about all this with her, shes avoiding the subject for the most part, which i understand. i'll talk to her when she wants to talk. dad went back to florida today. i didnt get to see him =[ oh well, that just gives me the excuse to go to florida this summer. now..for this willis post.

i gots major skill. actually, not really.

its the puppy dog eyes. those got him a java monster once.

*gasp* he smiled. =] thats my favorite photo i think.

ok. thats enough for now. yep.
sorry if i made your internet go pfffffffffffffffft willisface.

i think i'll do a dani post next. yep. *puts it on the list*

>>dani

realization

i have to stop assuming the worst in bad situations.
it makes me worry too much, more than is necessary.

i'll still worry, but not as much.
its better for me that way.

ok. im done.
>>dani[face] <---allie told me to.

RIP

my best friend samantha called me just a little while ago.
she was completely hysterical.
her grandfather passed away at around 7pm tonight.
shes not doing very well, not at all.
and im terrified, im afraid she may do something stupid.
even though i know shes not going to [i hope]. shes always been very anti-SI, but idk.
im really scared.

i just want her to be ok.
she has to be ok.

on a negative note...

the city of marion really needs to salt the roads better.

there were lots of car wrecks yesterday.

carrie couldnt stop at any of the stop signs we passed, she just slid, thank god no traffic was coming...

first wreck related thing i heard, [has nothing to do with the streets of marion..but still]
gabby was going to lunch, she was the first to start backing out, some girl started to back out [going faster than gabby] and hits her car. gabby's car took no damage, which is more than i can say for the other girl...

then this morning in art, shay tells me that she wasnt at school yesterday because when she left in the morning, she slid and hit something. again, no damage to her car.

at the same time, shay says that mandi was driving to tucker, tries to stop at the intersection at 14th and nebraska, a bus was also trying to stop..neither of them could. the bus hit mandi. she says shes ok, shes not sure about leigh or cliff [they were in the car with her]. hopefully they're ok too.

the weather is supposed to be bad again tonight, if we dont have at least a 2 hour delay tomorrow, im going to be upset.

that is all.
>>dani

new ones to add..

luke b. [i'd spell his last name, but it'd be wrong..and that would annoy me...]
he was leaving for lunch on friday, he dropped something, he bent down to get it. started to slide. he overcorrected, and hit the little building thingy by the football field. his car is smashed all to hell. amanda flannigan went to the hospital i guess. shes alright, but it was a precautionary thing.

johnny boyles. i dont know exactly what happened, but mandi says he got in a wreck on thursday too.

jasmine davis. she saw mandi's wreck, she wanted to turn around and help. in the process, she rear-ended the car parked behind the bus that hit mandi.

lets take a total shall we.
6 wrecks in a two day period. damn.
and to top it off, marion is out of salt. isnt that just lovely.

everyone be careful when driving. please, no more wrecks.

blog rules.

its about time i posted something about blog rules.

1. speak your mind, just think of it as though youre the only one reading it. hold nothing back.

2. there can never be too many photo posts.

3. edit names out of conversations you post [when necessary]

4. dont delete posts when your opinion changes, simply make edits. deleting them means you dont believe in what you wrote before hand, which you did, when you wrote it. no need for a retraction.

5. song lyrics make good posts.

6. dont take a post down just because someone asked you to, especially when the person asking you to is the one that it is about.

7. shout out posts tend to make your circle of friends very happy. write them often. =]

8. dont be afraid to post something that is just you going off on a rant, even though you think it makes no sense, youre friends will be able to get it. we may even help you. if not, we'll just giggle quietly. =P

9. avoid double negatives [example: aint never]. they irritate me.

10. comments. everyone loves it when people comment. ['specally dani] give lots of comments.

[[note: these rules are my opinions only, you dont have to follow them, but it' d be really cool if you did....]]

>>dani

happy birthday allieface

now i sing a song for you.

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday dear allllllllllllllllllie
happy birthday to you.

yay for being 18!
ily best friend.

weekend update

wow. this weekend was...
amazing.

friday, nothing really happened.
saturday, i slept til 11. that was lovely.
sunday, went to allies, then we went to youth.

wow, youth.
great times. rather than type out the entire story, i will give the highlights.
jason drove the van.
we went to matter park.
corey ran around in his boxers.
those boxers ended up on the floor of the van.
we went to taco bell.
we mortified jason. [gotta love those *would you rather... questions*]
there was awesome picture taking in the van.
jason drives like a maniac.
we got stuck in willis' driveway. [he laughed at us.]
we were going 80 down the road willis lives on, we hit a bump, allie and i flew out of our seats.
we got home at 11 ish.

Fort Wayne
allie and i went prom dress hunting.
i found the dress that i want.
we ate at smokey bones. [only allie gets why thats funny]
we went to kohls.
we went to go see Rent.

RENT!
doood, rent.
where do i start with this?
it was a whole lotta amazing.
we had really good seats.
allie and i sang along [tee hee]
there were tears.
then it was over.
oh, i got a pretty medal thingy. its pretty.
got home at 11:30 ish.
i showered.
i went to sleep.


this weekend was, in a word, amazing.
thank you to all that made it that way. [allie, sue, willis, jason, corey]
ily all.
>>dani

[ps expect a photo post to follow this...as soon as allie uploads them to myspace/facebook]
[[pps willis, you may not want to read that one, it may make your internet go *pffffffffft* and die, however, youre getting your post here soon, too....so....look at that one. xD]]

Kokomo Scrimmage #1

the academic super bowl teams had their first meet today.

im on the english and science teams.
we did pretty well i'd say.

science -- 16/25
english-- 20/25

granted, scrimmages mean nothing in terms of which team is better than another. [they arent officially scored] but its still nice to know that we are doing this well already.

ive had a good night. =]
>>dani

so allie and i were talking...

SoNotPerfect423 (7:54:28 PM): ya know. i could fill your room with condom balloons. that could be fun.

squishysrock4695 (7:54:40 PM): but what if i want them for college?

SoNotPerfect423 (7:54:50 PM): you can buy more

SoNotPerfect423 (7:55:02 PM): god knows you'll need em. silly whore.

squishysrock4695 (7:55:03 PM): but they won't be dani condomns

SoNotPerfect423 (7:55:14 PM): ok. i can buy you more. happy?

squishysrock4695 (7:55:19 PM): yay

squishysrock4695 (7:55:29 PM): that way everytime i use i can think of you

squishysrock4695 (7:55:40 PM): use them

SoNotPerfect423 (7:55:42 PM): i'd prefer that you didnt....

squishysrock4695 (7:55:47 PM): haha

squishysrock4695 (7:55:50 PM): ok

squishysrock4695 (7:55:52 PM): you win

SoNotPerfect423 (7:55:55 PM): thank you.

and fyi. conversations like this aren't really all that rare.
i love my *binge drinking* buddy. =]

>>dani

prom dress hunting.

i have been prom dress hunting for the past few days.

i found one that i love.
its right here

i love it, but at the same time..im unsure.
it doesnt look like dresses ive seen before, so i dont know if everyone will love it as much as me.

i need your opinions.
>>Dani

allieface

im bored. so im blogging about allie.
that photo right there, its my favorite =]
allie is a hoot.
i heart her.

doesnt she know that doing that makes me very unbalanced?

ok. thats all for now.

Over and Over--Three Days Grace

Over and Over
--Three Days Grace--

I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

this is one of my favorite three days grace songs.
it reminds me a lot of someone. so true.
>>dani

E! True Hollywood Story--Pink

so. mom and i were watching that just now.
i feel compelled to post lyrics.

Family Portrait
--Pink--

Momma please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean those nasty things you
said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, 'cause I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my
family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally.

I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her
last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)

Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night

that is all.
>>Dani

annonymous letter

hello.
you say you dont want to feel nonexistant in my life. so fine. i'll make you exist. im about to tell you exactly how i feel about you, exactly what crosses my mind when i think of you. exactly what i miss about you. you will exist by the end of all this.

when i first saw you this is exactly what i was thinking "you seem like a nice person, im not entirely sure about you..but i'll take the chance"
when times got rough i still thought you were someone i wanted in my life. i loved you. there was no changing that.
when i was with you it was like i could be me. i didnt have to worry about what was going on around me. you made me happy.
when i wasnt with you i was still happy, just torn. i didnt know what was going on, and because of past events, there was a definite lack of trust. i looked past it.
when it ended i was crushed. of course i told you i was fine, youre pretty damn naive for believing me. i was so very not fine.
when i was sure it was over i was finally fine. there was massive confusion about my feelings, but i was fine. i was happy
when i see your face i think of everything that happened, everything that couldve happened, and everything that didnt happen.
when i think of you now im happy. youve made me a better person. youve made me stronger.
when i think of us i wonder. i told you i was done. but im not really that sure.
what i miss most is your ability to always make me smile. the way you looked at me. the way it felt to be around you.
what i dont miss at all is the distance, the constant separation, the constant worry, the lack of trust, never knowing, the hurt, the confusion, the drama.

i love you.

there. now you know. now you exist.
no, this wasnt done just because you said you felt nonexistant.
ive been wanting.....needing to do this for a while now.
you just gave me the push.

>>dani

ps. i know that most anyone that reads this knows who its about. please. no comments. no questions. i did what i had to do.

boo

so, this weekend, its been good

friday-- i went to allies. we hung out. it was a lovely time. always is. we got new furniture friday too. my couch is lovely. good for napping. =]

saturday-- mom calls and says that ball state accepted me, which was nice. =] me madre bought a new tv. its pretty.

sunday-- superbowl party at youth, great fun. allie and i spent a considerable amount of time on third floor *doing homework* ahaha. homework. i did watch the last quarter of the game in its entirety though. it was a lovely 15 minutes (well not really 15, you know football. 15 takes an hour...anyways...) everyone was going all nutzo like. it was great. giants won. i could sleep easy. XD

but now for the really great part.
house. ooooooemmmmgeeeee it was amazing.
i will say this and only this.
if youre in love with someone, that must mean you are willing to drink their urine and drill a hole in their head to save their life.
ahahaha.

willis--youre a slackerface. you missed the fun. but i suppose its ok =]
>>dani
ps. dad is going to michigan tomorrow. im excited xD