every single time. :/

Economics makes me hate college more and more each day. It is going to cost me SPEA, I can feel it.

Damn.

[song. hold it against me. britney spears.]

Hey over there
Please forgive me
If I'm coming on too strong
Hate to stare
But you're winning
And they're playing my favorite song

So come here
'Little closer
Wanna whisper in your ear
Make it clear
Little question
Wanna know just how you feel

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Hey you might think
That I'm crazy
But you know I'm just your type
I might be 'little hazy
But you just cannot deny

There's a spark inbetween us
When we're dancing on the floor
I want more
Wanna see it
So I'm asking you tonight

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

[Spoken]
If I said I want your body
Would you hold It against me?

(Yeah) (Uh huh) (Oh)

Gimme something good
Don't wanna wait I want It now (na-na-now)
Pop It like a hood
And show me how you work It out

(Alright)

If I said my heart was beating loud

If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me

Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me


[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/britney-spears-lyrics/hold-it-against-me-lyrics.html ]

optimism vs. anxiety

You know the one thing I always fail to budget for? Food.
You know what the consequence of that failure is? Severe anxiety over my ability to pay rent this summer.
You know what that is doing to me? I think I'm developing an ulcer.
Even though this is going on, I am trying to not think about it. I have better things to think about. Like not failing out of college. School sort of has to come first, right? OY VEY. I need to win the lottery.

"...you are my exception."

He's Just Not That Into You has made me fall in love with Justin Long. Oy.

Day 30--A Picture of Someone You Miss!

Kayla 'K-Bizzle' Beckman.

I MISS YOU, BEEF.

Okay, for real, I miss hanging out with her. She is the best friend ever, and we don't get to chill as much when classes are going on. Hanging out with Kayla is always a good time, and a lot of my favorite memories involve her. I love you, Beef!

Day 29--A Picture That Can Always Make You Smile

This is for all the 'Kissy Pics'!

These pictures always make me smile. Why? A couple reasons, one being that I think I am the only one of our friends that has never legit kissed Chelsea, and yet we have at least 15 of these pictures. That and, look how cute she is. Wouldn't you smile at her? ;)
She is going to be the worlds greatest [for real] roommate!

Day 28--A Picture of Something You're Afraid of

Bugs.
Creepy Crawlies, if you will.
I HATE bugs.
I hate them. They are awful, and creepy, and gross.
I DO NOT LIKE BUGS.

The 'What-If's" in Life

If taking a semester off didn't carry such an overwhelmingly negative stigma, and a great deal of uncertainty, it would seriously be considered an option for me at this point. Too bad, though.
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I am hating college today.

Day 27--A Picture of You and a Family Member

Momma.
Isn't she just the cutest? :) This is a picture from Thanksgiving this past year. We were lookin' super cute that day!

Something I've Noticed..

I am missing classes left and right these past few weeks. I wouldn't call it any kind of 'insert year'-itis, but more a 'I don't have the drive to care right now'-itis. It's entirely my own doing, really. I know that in the end, regardless of what [or who] keeps me from focusing on school, the responsibility lies ultimately on myself. But why is it that this semester, a semester that is SO crucial to the rest of my academic career is the one I just can't bring myself to give a damn about? I really don't understand it. I just don't care about ANYTHING anymore. To be honest, I would be perfectly content doing absolutely nothing and turning into a hermit crab who lives in her room 24/7. But that is impractical. I need to give a damn. I need to gain the drive to rock this semester, but can I? I don't really know. I hope so.

Day 26--A Picture of Something That Means A Lot to You

Purple-Cow-Moosey-Thing.

Funny thing is, I think this is really SUPPOSED to be a donkey. oh well. This is really one of my most favorite things ever. It was given to me by my beef on my 18th birthday. [well, the day before, since she ditched me on my birthday to go visit Purdue..]. This is a good symbol for our friendship, really. It's odd. It'd different. It's awesome. That's pretty much Kayla and I personified. He has always been perched somewhere I can see him. The silly little thing makes me laugh.

I love Purple-Cow-Moosey-Thing. :)